Marriage has always been something I saw myself doing, but it never happened. As a little girl, I just knew that I was going to be the best mom and wife ever. I would have the big house, white picket fence, a great husband and awesome children. I would make myself available and still nothing happened. I tried being the one to make the first move, but it was the wrong move. I became very impatient and discouraged.
I had my awesome children, but not the great husband, so I wanted to know what I was doing wrong, but no one could help me. I started praying hard in 2013 and I started asking God why I have not been found. The answer did not come right then, of course. I had to wait a lot of months before he reveled to me why.
To give a brief history, I am and have always been a boss. I was the strong, independent, lonely woman. I never needed a man for anything, so I thought. I had been running my house and doing a pretty good job of it, but I felt incomplete. Why was I incomplete? I did not know. I was on a mission from there on to find out.
First let me say, I do not believe in coincidences. When I started school that spring, I had to take intro to bible class. I fought it, because I felt like I knew enough about the bible and I go to church all the time. It was a lower level class and I just did not want to take it. Well, I had to take it. It was taught by Rev. Palmer, and when I first met him, I looked at him and his serious demeanor, and instantly judged what the class was going to be like.
Then, the next class period, some jailers were there and they were ninety-eight percent of the class. I was about to lose it (judging again). When we got into the class and started getting in depth with the word, I then understood why God led me to this class. He was working on my life and showing me some things that I was so bling too. He was preparing me.
Brief history again to explain the inner turmoil. My brother has always been strange (so I thought). He was afraid...