It has been a while since I sent you a hand-written note because I got used to communicate with you through video and phone calls and I guess, this means a lot to you.
I ate my favorite chiffon cake and remembered our conversation a year ago where you said that the desire to be rich,powerful or famous is universal and I strongly agree to your statement but I can't help thinking and visualizing that kind of world. One time, you asked me, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” and I replied, “I want to be a songwriter, known for my awesome compositions and everyone just sings to it.” However, you told me that I should be wary of my inspiration in wanting to be a songwriter.
Before, I was not able to understand why did you gave me those warnings but this time, I'm awakaned by your words. I wanted to be a famous songwriter because I have an idol- one whom I look up to and what I wanted to be. I tend to live their life than live my own life. I follow my idols, retweet their tweets, make their faces my cover photo or display picture. I am willing to do anything just to follow them, see them, know them and just to be like them. You warned me because you knew that this inspiration leads to obsession to fame, money, achievements and success which makes me slightly irrational and you don't want me to be simply be a duplicate copy of their lives.
Now, I wanted to thank you for letting me imagine this kind of world- a world full of people trying to be like other people. With this world, no one could help those who can't help themselves. I think that's not what you want ,as well, because I know that you have a strong desire to leave a great and remarkable legacy behind and this is the reason why I started to want a world, where humans hunger for a meaningful and satisfying life by genuinely aspiring to contribute to that kind of world and leaving materialistic aims below. Even so, every individual chose to go with the have-it-all strategy....